A Dose Of Reality

Sometimes life has a way of kicking you pretty hard in the testicles. It feels like you move from one ricockulous situation to the next and this week has been no different. I alluded to an opportunity presenting itself during an earlier blogpost and suffice to say, that opportunity slipped me by. No wait, not slipped me by, but actually spared me the horror of running with it. This has been a week of enlightenment, a week where people's true colours have begun to shine through and some of those colours have been ghastly whilst others have been rather wonderful.

Changes are afoot. I am beginning to think outside this little box I have been living in and wondering at the opportunities to be had elsewhere. I have had a gutful of the human capacity for utter selfishness and am eager to be proved wrong. So the net is being cast wide and now I am interested in seeing just what I manage to catch.

I want to lay back and look up at the night sky and see the stars, unmarred by light pollution, totally at peace with myself and breathing the cool night air as the wind ruffles my hair. Life doesn't get better than that and I realise that by relying upon the milk of human kindness for too long, I have been blind to just how bitter it can taste when you start scraping the bottom of the barrel.

So it's back to basics for me, back to finding out what actually gets my buttons pushed in all the right places and I think it's going to be quite a ride. Far from allowing things to bring me down, I will continue to try and bolster my resolve and enjoy a little more of my life.

Thanks to those of you who've stuck by me recently. And shame on you to those who never gave a damn. I can see your true colours.