Down to the bottom of the Sea

Well it's been several weeks since my last blog and I can officially say I have been skint for most of that period. My car cost me £150 to get through it's MOT in a month where I was already dealing with a tight budget and I still had my buildings insurance to pay as well. Fanastic.

Surprisingly, therefore, I am in a chirpy mood. Things have been coming down around my ears but I feel like the proud captain standing by and waiting for the ship to finally sink beneath the waves and I along with it, clinging to pride and oblivious to my fate. I guess I've just decided that life throws lots of curve balls your way and you have to ride it out or else you will become a depressing person to be around. These things do throw up further options to you, such as whether to stay in the job you're in if you're not satsfied with it, whether to get rid of your car and get a new one or whether to take a chance on someone new and see if it'll lead to happiness.

I'm not one for doing something drastic. I like to weigh up my options before going for any one in particular and I'm in no hurry to do so at the moment. Things have been tight this month and will probably be a little tight next month as well but on the plus side, I'll have a nice chunk of overtime coming to me in September which is something I will certainly need to help me pay for this month!

On the "love" front, things are currently non-existant but I also kinda like it that way for now. I've given a lot of myself to people over the past year or so and have usually had it thrown back in my face so I think it's time for me to simply focus on myself and what I need. I'm one of those guys who likes to make his other half happy and unfortunately that is something that can either be taken advantage of or simply goes unrecognised. I'm not keen to step into meeting someone else and risk either of those two situations so will do what I do best, which is bimble along and see what happens. A couple of people have shown an interest but I'm not after anything serious at the mo. Once my finances are fully in order and back on track, maybe I'll consider it.

Well, I agreed to meet up with the ex to have a chat about things but it's been over a month now and I've not seen her. She's not been able to make time so I've pretty much got on with things regardless. I'm not one for dwelling on things so have just got out there, met up with people and had a good time. Your mates are the measure of you, and I have truly fab mates, thankfully. I'm glad I kept in contact over the years because without them, I'd be a hermit!